Epiphany

A few days ago, I finally had this amazing epiphany about my life and what I've been going through. When I first failed the bar, I was devastated and in complete denial. I went through this period where I thought the bar was going to send me this letter and let me know there was a mix-up, that I really had passed the bar. I was so deep in denial that I had failed.

When I really started studying in Kentucky, I was able to move past the denial and get down to work. Clearly being a lawyer is something I have always wanted to be, and I'm not going to give it up.

I was in the kitchen a few days ago with the Petes, and Big Pete turned to me and said, "I think you're here for a reason right now." I didn't have to stop and think because I completely agreed with him. I think everything that I've gone through in the past year was for a reason. I think I failed the bar because I needed to realize my life wasn't going in a good direction. I also think I failed the bar because it forced me to leave a relationship, that already wasn't working.

I think it all happened for a reason. It gave me a wonderful summer with my parents and Freddie, which I probably would have never had but for failing the bar. It gave me re-direction on my life and determination to reach my goals. It also reminded me that NH is home. Coming here after a summer in Kentucky, I now know I want to be in NH; this is my home and always will be. Finally, I am ok and I am at peace with the fact that I failed the bar.

I feel like as horrible as it was when I failed the bar and how devastated I was, its ok now. I am going to be a lawyer, I am going to get a job and I am going to achieve my goals.

Tribute to Freddie

Freddie, our dear golden retriever, unfortunately passed away today. He's been sick for quite some time and the vet finally told my parents today that it was cancer, they just couldn't locate it in his body. Because he's been losing so much weight and inability to control his body, the vet said it was really time for him. My parents were with him when he was put to sleep and they're both crushed from his loss.

Freddie was a very loyal dog, and enjoyed most of his days with my dad, at work. He went every day until this summer. Since I was home all day, my dad would leave him with me while I studied because all he did was sleep anyway. He did enjoy our study breaks for a snack and quick walk to the mailbox. He even enjoyed laying out by the pool. As long as someone was close by, Freddie was happy.

Freddie came to us from a rescue shelter in Alabama. When he was found, they believed he was likely about 8 years old and had been on the street for sometime. Although we only had Freddie for 6 years, he was a great addition to our family and will surely be missed.

Below are some of my favorite pictures of Freddie from this summer.



Freddie looks kinda unhappy in this last picture. I think that's because it was the day I left Kentucky and the last time I got to see him.