FINALLY!!

Ok, so I feel like I unintentionally abandoned my blog, so I'm here to reclaim it! Here goes: finally, after all the hard work, sweat and tears, I passed the bar! I don't think I could have been more elated and emotional about it. I actually happened a few weeks ago, but I just haven't had the time to sit down and write about it.

It was Wednesday, October 28th and I was driving back from an afternoon in Manchester. I got a text from Sue, stating that she saw on a website that Mass bar results were out. I immediately panicked and had to pull the car over. I had been waiting weeks for this day, but I was suddenly so unprepared for it. I had already been to the mailbox once that day, and with living in a small town, the mail only comes once a day. Either way, it was close to five o'clock so I knew I had to at least try to get there before 5pm to check the mail again.

I ran in and went straight to our P.O. Box. I open it and staring at me is a letter. I freaked. I picked up and of course, it was junk mail. It was such a tease! I get back home and I'm a mess. I'm all freaked out about the results. I was pacing, couldn't sit still and generally a nervous wreck. We discussed a plan for the morning.

Generally the mail isn't out until 10am. Therefore, the plan was for Pete and I (I couldn't do it alone) to head to the mail box at 10 am. I could hardly sleep that night. I woke up at 9 am on Thursday and tried to force myself to stay in bed longer. I didn't want to rush to the mailbox and not have it be there. Finally, I couldn't contain myself any longer. I got up and rushed around throwing clothes on. Tim yelled to me because he couldn't understand what I was doing. I finally just said, I have to go, now! I can't wait. Even if its not there, I can't wait any longer.

Tim asked if he could join me, and I told him yes as long as he was dressed to leave immediately. We jumped into his car and sped off to the post office, maybe a 2 mile drive away. So we get there. I throw my seat belt off and am rushing to get out of the car. Tim decided to come with me. We go to the box, and for a brief moment, I tried to stop and remember this day, because I knew it would be good. Finally, I opened the box, and there it was. The letter I had been waiting for. I screamed, "Its here, its right on top." I couldn't contain the excitement.

We grabbed the letter, but I couldn't leave without first getting Pete and Beth's mail too. I thought that would only be appropriate. We get to the car, and we're both unsure of what to do next. So I gave Tim the letter, he held it, and then he had the dog kiss it for good luck. He handed it back to me, but I couldn't open it right away. I was just trying to soak it all in, and say my last minute prayers. But before I opened it, I flipped it over, and right through the paper, I could clearly see "Congratulations!" I went a little crazy. I must have yelled something like "I passed," but Tim couldn't understand what was going on. I ripped open the letter and started reading it. I dawned on him what i was trying to tell him. We were yelling, hugging and I was crying. It was so emotional.

We left the post office and I immediately called my mom. She answered the phone and while I am still crying, I just blurted out "I passed!" Of course, she starts crying on the phone too.

It was such an emotional day. I cried, I celebrated and I felt at ease, for the first time in a long time. I am being sworn in on Tuesday, and I can't wait for this part of the journey to be over. Its still hard to believe that on Tuesday I will be a licensed attorney!

In other news, I also have a job interview lined up next week. After all the cover letters, writing samples and resumes I've sent out, I've finally started to see results. Even if this job doesn't come to fruition, its a start. No matter what happens, things are looking up and I have a lot of people to thank for that!